Desire 1

"Seher kahan marr gayi subah kabka hogaya hai mujhe chai lakar dee (seher where you? It's already morning serve me tea)" hearing the loud shout of Fabiha Siddiqui also her maami seher snapped out of her thoughts and poured the tea in a cup..

She poured morning tea for everyone then went to living where everyone were sitting.. She served the tea to Fabiha and shahista her Nanoo (grandmother) then Faizan her bade maamu jaan (mom's brother) then everyone..

"Khadi khadi muh kya dekh rahi hai jaa jakr nashta tayyar kar (why are you standing and staring at us like this huh? Go and prepare breakfast)" there wasn't even a tinge of softness in Fabiha's voice.. Thou Siddiqui haveli has servants and butlers still she wanted seher to the work..

"Agayii Maharani kahan gayi thi aap? (Ohh finally you here where were you by the way?)" Their choti maami (Mom's brother's wife) rania questioned Erina as soon as she saw her walking inside the haveli..

"Jii Assalam alaikum note books laane gayi thi aur haa apne paise se liye aur auto rickshaw sa wapas aayi car use nahi ki maine (I went out to buy note books and yeah I came back taking auto rickshaw I didn't use any cars and money was also mine)" Erina sweetly answered.. Unlike Seher Erina knew how to snapped them back she wasn't scared of anyone..

"Ain't you talking too much Erina?" Fabiha fumed.. while Erina smiled softly "ofcourse not badi maami I was just saying the point anyways you all enjoy the morning I will going to help seher in making breakfast" answering she went to the kitchen dragging seher with her..

"Baadi hu tujhse kabhi toh appi boldiya kar (I am elder than you atleast call me sis by respect)" Seher hissed glaring at her younger sibling.. "Mohtarma 2 saal ki baadi hai aap zyada fayda na uthaiye (damn women you are just two years elder than me there is nothing to take advantage of it)" Erina answered giggling making seher smiled too..

"Acchi lagti hai aap haste hue (You look beautiful when you smile)" Erina said just then something striked her mind and seher's face paled but she chucked it and started preparing the breakfast..

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"Azlan is coming back tomorrow" she felt herself stiffened hearing Faizan but continued to serve the breakfast to everyone..

"Seher don't you dare to come infront of Azlan he is coming back to get some peace so don't try to ruin it" Fabiha said and she kept mum trying hard not to cry..

"Fabiha I think you are forgetting Azlan is her--" Nanoo's (grandma) sentence was cut as Fabiha started again "Ammi jaan chup kar jaye aage kuch na bolein (Ammi please don't anything further)"

She quickly served the breakfast to everyone and picked her bag and walked out of the mansion after bidding bye to everyone..

Erina had already left for college earlier as she has some important assignments to submit...She hailed a taxi for herself to go to the college..

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After college...

After college Seher and Erina went to the cafe where they were doing a waitress job their pay was okayish atleast enough to pay their college fees..They changed their outfit into the uniform then started taking the orders..

No one in the haveli knew that they were doing waitress job they thought they were tutoring students after college..

Thou nobody cares what they were doing both got treated like a maid in the haveli.. They needed money for their survival for their own needs and to pay their college fees so they had to do this job..

They sighed as their work was done and they also got the notification in phone that their salary has been debited to their account..

Smiling at each other they walked out of the cafe after changing into their normal outfit and covering their head..

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Crying while praying was seher's favourite job because she knew only Almighty listened to her and she could share everything with him..It gives her the peace..

As soon as she was done with her prayer.. She had her dinner a little then sat down on her bed staring out of the window.. The drop of tear rolled down from her cheek as she remembered something..

Life was always unfair to her.. She got happiness but then also it was snatched away from in most brutual way.. Her heart clenched painfully when she thought about all the happening..

"You are strong seher" she wiped her tears harshly then laid down on the bed closing his eyes..

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She closed her eyes trying to sleep but next moment she let out a groan as his thoughts weren't leaving her mind.. She hated herself for thinking about the Man who never cared for her and did everything to hurt her..

Flashback start..

"Zay don't do this to me!! I Love you I love you only I'll do anything for you please don't get engaged to her" she said holding his hand her grey orbs were full of tears..

"Pagal hogayii ho? Are you mad?" She flinched at his loud tone then moved back.. Her Zay never talked to her in this tone he was the only person who was being Softie to her in this big haveli and now he was also shouting at her..

"Zay I really love you and I know you love me too please say no to this engagement then we'll get engaged" she was crying mess pleading to him to not to broke her heart..

"You dumb girl firstly I don't love you I could never love a kid like you.. You are just 16 and mine care and affection made you think that I was in love with you but I am not and yes I am getting engaged to Afsa so stay away from me" he said and she shook her head in no..

"I know you love me zay please don't do this to me I promise main apke liye kuch bhi karungi please yeh engagement na karein ( I will do anything for you please stop this engagement)" she literally begged and next moment he jerked her close to him his nails digging in her flesh which made her hissed loudly.. "You are no one to me okay? I don't love you!! You are just a burden on me and my family you should thank us that we give you and your sister shelter but you are such an ungrateful brat" her little heart broke with his hard words...

It wasn't love?

Him making her eat dinners making her sleep giving her chocolates and late night Ice creams still it wasn't love..

"Rina you are beautiful this tears doesn't suits you.. your mom dad is in better place now" his soft and soothing words rang in her ears their moments flashed infront of her eyes making her eyes teary..

But then there comes reality when she saw him slipping the ring in Afsa's finger.. They were engaged now and it will be no forbidden to think about him in any means he belonged to other lady now..

He wasn't her Zay now.. He was Zayan Siddiqui who broke Erina Ahmed's heart way too brutally.. Or maybe it was her mistake that she fell in love with the man who didn't care about her feelings or she was too innocent that she took his care and affection as love..

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Feeling thirsty seher wokeup in the middle of the night.. Not finding a water bottle in her room she get off from the bed and picked her duppata then went to kitchen..

Taking out a bottle from the fridge she turned only to bumped with something hard and her brown eyes widened when the cologne hit her nostrils..

It was him

It was him standing few inches away from her..

She could feel her own heartbeat which was beating erratically in such speed that she felt she was getting anxiety attack..

Fumbling she moved back looking here there as she didn't want to look into his captivating eyes which still held the power to make her loose her sanity..

'Run seher Run' her subconscious said and she clutched her bottle more tight ready to run"Nisa" her body erupted with goosebumps when she heard him calling her with the nickname which he gave hers...

She looked up looking into his blue orbs which wasn't cold and devoid of emotions like always.. It held something soft for her she could feel it but then something striked her mind and her eyes started to get teary..

"My name is Seherunnisa or seher don't destroy my name" she said without stuttering or getting intimated by his dominating aura then walked out of the kitchen..

Seherunnisa Azlan Siddiqui will never going to forgive Azlan Siddiqui for his past behaviour..